Today,on the last day of July when I look back at the past month,i don't believe i could do all of that.Standing there,all by myslef,withstanding all my fears,my health issues and all the stroms that hit me.And yes i lived through it.Although things arn't really perfect now but im glad i made through it.
When everything seems gloomy,when nothing works in your favour,the people standing next to you are the real ones.Im blessed to have hit this point in my life when i got to know the real ones.Sometimes you expect people to be there and you really need them.Somebody who leaves your hand at such times..who just decides to walk out of your life at that crucial time was i guess never yours.I dunno what to call them.I understand they have their own reasons.But when you tell them that "NOW is when i actually need you",with all the hope and pain in your eyes and they still decide to leave,nothing can be worse than that.Maybe they were never yours.You lived in some dream and thats the day you wake up only to see the real world.No matter in how much agony and pain you lie,watching them walk away is the reality you have to face.
Its when you take your own decisions in life against all odds,fighting your parents,when you decide to do something,and when that goes wrong you want to suffer alone.Yes,i decided to take all the brunt upon me and regret my own decision,my choices.Not letting my parents know even an inch about it.There comes the toughest part.No matter how loving your friends are,how caring your loved one is,but nobody takes your parents place.Yes,i realized.I agree i had taken them for granted at some point and now i reaaly reaallyyy know their worth.Im sorry mumma..papa..iv been stubborn and neglected you two alot of times..i have tears in my eyes as i write this post.Iv never opened my heart out to the two of you.I have issues being emotionally open but i wish some day some time you read this post.
Nevertheless,im glad all of it happened to me.Iv learnt alot.And thats what matters.I can proudly say that i have grown up.This one month has aged me mentally.It has made me strong and mature.I now think about things more practically unlike earlier when i was all snobbish about things.Yet,sumwhere i miss that innocence iv lost in me.I know things happen for your good and everything has a reason.I know sumbody up there has planned better things in store for me.I know when something isnt complete n hasnt ended well,karma steps in and takes charge of a happy ending. Coz if it isnt happy,its not the end.
When everything seems gloomy,when nothing works in your favour,the people standing next to you are the real ones.Im blessed to have hit this point in my life when i got to know the real ones.Sometimes you expect people to be there and you really need them.Somebody who leaves your hand at such times..who just decides to walk out of your life at that crucial time was i guess never yours.I dunno what to call them.I understand they have their own reasons.But when you tell them that "NOW is when i actually need you",with all the hope and pain in your eyes and they still decide to leave,nothing can be worse than that.Maybe they were never yours.You lived in some dream and thats the day you wake up only to see the real world.No matter in how much agony and pain you lie,watching them walk away is the reality you have to face.
Its when you take your own decisions in life against all odds,fighting your parents,when you decide to do something,and when that goes wrong you want to suffer alone.Yes,i decided to take all the brunt upon me and regret my own decision,my choices.Not letting my parents know even an inch about it.There comes the toughest part.No matter how loving your friends are,how caring your loved one is,but nobody takes your parents place.Yes,i realized.I agree i had taken them for granted at some point and now i reaaly reaallyyy know their worth.Im sorry mumma..papa..iv been stubborn and neglected you two alot of times..i have tears in my eyes as i write this post.Iv never opened my heart out to the two of you.I have issues being emotionally open but i wish some day some time you read this post.
Nevertheless,im glad all of it happened to me.Iv learnt alot.And thats what matters.I can proudly say that i have grown up.This one month has aged me mentally.It has made me strong and mature.I now think about things more practically unlike earlier when i was all snobbish about things.Yet,sumwhere i miss that innocence iv lost in me.I know things happen for your good and everything has a reason.I know sumbody up there has planned better things in store for me.I know when something isnt complete n hasnt ended well,karma steps in and takes charge of a happy ending. Coz if it isnt happy,its not the end.
